“The LORD will fight for you while you keep silent.” Exodus 14:14
Lord knows today, I walked outside without putting on my armor all the way. Normally each morning I read Ephesians 6:10-18 and cover myself in the blood of Jesus, because where I am now, I know I can’t walk out without my weapons for battle fully engaged. So I unknowingly allowed that first thing this morning the enemy came and suplexed me, totally off guard. I have been facing some difficulties at my current employment. The enemy has been attacking me repeatedly through certain people, but I can truly say I have grown in the midst. From crying after every snide comment or remark, to standing up for myself today, with the documentation to prove it, lol, I have progressed. And it is all because I chose to go to the Lord for help in this fight. I was not and am not equipped to fight these battles alone. It was during my candid conversation with a great friend that it dawned on me: I have been trying to fight battles that I wasn’t supposed to fight.
‘The LORD your God who goes before you will Himself fight on your behalf, just as He did for you in Egypt before your eyes,’ Deuteronomy 1:30 NASB
Several times the Lord tells us ‘Vengeance is mine.’ I thought of this, this morning, during the morning call for my project. I flushed with anger at the blatant disrespect and accusations of incomplete tasking. I had to walk out and go to the restroom so I could pray, and I walked outside to pray more because I had to remind myself that God would avenge my wrongs and He had to fix this situation. He spoke back, saying that He would fight for me if I let Him. He started reminding me of all the emails I sent to document my progress as well as the email detailing my specific assignments from a recent meeting. As I sent the text to my friend, “I feel like I’m fighting a losing battle,” I realized what I had said. God revealed to me that I would most certainly lose, if I did not get Him involved, acknowledge my own limitations and step back. Why, because we cannot defeat the enemy in our own strength. Our flesh kicks in–like my anger–and we succumb to it…because only God gives us the strength necessary to overcome, versus relying on our own strength. But we must trust, know and believe that with God as our warrior and Commander-in-Chief, there is no battle that will snatch victory from us.
For the LORD your God is the one who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies to give you victory.” Deuteronomy 20:4 NIV
It was in my follow-up text that I spoke truth and uplift to my soul: “I’ll keep trusting God for deliverance. It’s not mine to fight…” In writing that, I realized that I have allowed these people (well the spirits operating within them) to get me shaken up, bent out of shape, and frustrated–open to attack from the enemy versus using what God gave me to fight. I hadn’t completely left these battles in God’s hands. I sat in my car and prayed for about 30 minutes to bind up the enemy and every attack. It was then that I was able to get my email working and print out all the emails. It was then that I was able to construct a professional email to document my response and attach the emails that vindicated me. It was after I ate some chocolate and an apple (don’t judge me, I needed comfort food from all that frustration :D) and catching up with a friend, that I was finally cooled off. After that, I could sing and praise God freely, because I know without a doubt that He had and is going up to bat for me.
You have to cover yourself. You never know who the enemy will use to accomplish His works, to distract you or to simply get you out of praising God. You have to know that God goes with you every step of the way and will fight your battles if you allow Him room in your life to do so. I didn’t cover myself this morning in my armor like always, so I was ambushed this morning. The beauty of this battle is that the enemy won’t win, even after an ambush. He won’t win, even after temporarily stunning me. God has already won this battle, by having me cover myself and acknowledge that issue for what it was…I won’t go out unprepared for fights anymore!
Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. Ephesians 6:13 NASB