When Jesus saw him lying there, and knew that he had been now a long time in that condition, he said unto him, Will you be made whole? John 5:6
Hi there lovelies! I would have done a video, but seeing that my hair isn’t dry…yeah…haha. Today I had the most amazing epiphanies… I can now listen to a song that once made me cry incessantly thinking about people I lost and no longer feel sad and I can watch chick flick/romantic comedies without feeling sad. I would skip the song on the album and the crazy part is I loveeeedddd this album. And the movies…well, whenever they would get to the wedding parts I would cry and feel sorry for myself, because either I would get sad missing my daddy and thinking how he isn’t here to walk me down the aisle or I would think about the fact that I’m very single. LOL.
But I did a prayer challenge where I specifically prayed for total healing. Healing once and for all. Because this summer I realized how I let these ideals of marriage and happily ever after consume my every waking thought, to the point that I was thinking about it every day, muttering over who I thought was going to be my husband, complaining that things were not going as I thought they should be going and just being angry with God. Then one day, God revealed to me some things that I needed to let go of and that were keeping me from fully being healed. And just like I did with forgiving others, I prayed about it, felt the pain, cried, and did that as often as it took. So today, I realized that I am content. Happy in this space, accepting me as I am, faults and all, and ready to live life without regrets.
I realized that healing is much more than physical. I’m reminded right now of the miracle of the invalid at the pool of Bethesda in John 5, verses 1 through 15. Jesus asked him did he want to be made whole. I’m sure after being crippled for 38 years he had some mental insecurities and issues, emotional baggage and shortcomings, and the obvious disdain for life. Sometimes we get these same issues from the heartaches of life, death, breakups, divorce, job losses, and failed family relationships. We give up and we get so down on ourselves that we respond like the man did, with excuses. Fortunately, Jesus sees beyond our excuses and meets us where we are to bring us what we need. That’s what He did for me in New Orleans, and that’s what He did for me just a few weeks ago.
Healing is not always instantaneous, but we always have to get to a place to accept it. Accept that we need healing. Accept that we don’t want our lives to be the same. Accept that we need Jesus to give us that healing. I’m so grateful to God that I accepted what He offered me. So today I encourage you to accept the gift of healing. No matter how long it takes, no matter how much you have to thank Him for it, accept it and receive it. Day by day the pain will fade and you will be better than you were before. You will be wiser and in a position to share your testimony with others who are going through what you are facing.
The man went away, and told the Jews that it was Jesus which had made him whole. John 5:15