30 Before 30: Living in the Now

I’ve seen this written and spoken so many times but today it set in. We live life daily as if tomorrow is coming and the past has never left us. We focus on the past as it creates the defining lines of our personage, and we look to the future as our way out of the uncertainty of the present. As I read today, while waiting on my 4th iPhone to sync up, it dawned on me how we try to control life instead of living it and appreciating each moment we have as it comes.

I journey back to an old familiar passage in Matthew 6. I thought I had been living by these scriptures but I realize now it was only in a brief capacity. Matthew 6:25-33 tells us not to worry, but I think an often overlooked message is to live right now in this moment.

“That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing? 26Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are? 27Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?

28“And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, 29yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. 30And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?

31“So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ 32These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. 33Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.

34“So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.

I focus today on verses 27 and 34. Verse 27 asks can you add a single moment to your life by worrying…and truthfully that is all we have…this very moment. We are not God so we cannot add another moment to our lives! This breath we inhale in this moment represents the extent of our lives. Think about it. Inhale and exhale…that is all you have. No longer should you be confined to your past because as each moment passes, it no longer matters. Yes it happened and at some point you have to feel and deal with the pain because the pain will keep you bound. But once you do, it no longer imprisons you. It no longer keeps you from God’s greatness.

And looking at verse 34, tomorrow does not matter. But why should it? Tomorrow is not promised. It does not exist and yes you can plan for it, but it should not be greater than your living in the present with God. We should not focus on worrying because God promises to meet all our needs (Php 4:19, Psalm 23).

I used to spend so much time rehashing the past that I missed out on enjoying those present moments. I can’t get that time back. Neither can you. I also used to plan like a controlling madwoman for my future. So when those plans I had did not manifest, it crushed me…adding to my painful past. Once I began to surrender that need to control to God, things stopped being so serious. Things stopped being such a big deal. As I gain more and more freedom, I see how much peace and joy I have and love I feel by living in this moment. You don’t get this moment back, so start living in it!

You have made my life no longer than the width of my hand. My entire lifetime is just a moment to you; at best, each of us is but a breath." Interlude Psalm 39:5

30 Before 30: Hopeful

Goooooooddd day y’all!

I have prayed for a way to send off my twenties and today I realized the only way I can do that with grace is to do a daily mini-video (on my IG and Facebook) and to write a devotion. I probably won’t send every single day’s entry to you all (don’t wanna bombard you) but they will be on my Facebook and my blog. So here goes!

There is a song by Twista and Faith Evans from the soundtrack of Coach Carter called “Hope.” The chorus is this:

Cuz I’m hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he’ll make a way
I know it ain’t easy but that’s okay.
Cause we hopeful

I thought of it this morning as I thought about how I have been through the years. Even though part of me is sad about turning 30, the rational, Faith-filled part of me is hopeful. Hope is defined as a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen or grounds for believing that something good may happen. And without a doubt, I certainly have hope.

Last night after dropping my baby niece off, I saw my first shooting star ever. It was amazing to see, right in front of me as I pulled to the stop sign. I knew it was God saying to me that everything will be okay, and that what lies ahead of me is far better than I can imagine and to keep hoping because it IS coming!

Shooting stars are signs of wishes coming true. And two scriptures that embody that ideal that I’ve confessed for various prayers is Psalm 20:4 and Psalm 21:2, which say:

May he grant your heart’s desires and make all your plans succeed. Psalm 20:4 NLT

For you have given him his heart’s desire; you have withheld nothing he requested. Psalm 21:2

In confessing these and in seeing the star, the seemingly random Facebook and Instagram posts of others, the devotions I get…it has finally dawned on me to stay hopeful despite what I now see.

You see the devil wants you to give up and doubt God. He wants you to lose sight of the promise and to question God. He wants you hopeless and curse God and die! But when there are so many signs and things present to encourage you if you would merely see them!!!

Keep the hope alive and it will happen!!

And this is the confidence that we have toward him, that if we ask anything according to his will he hears us. And if we know that he hears us in whatever we ask, we know that we have the requests that we have asked of him. 1 John 5:14-15