When Bold is All You Can Be

Now He was telling them a parable to show that at all times they ought to pray and not to lose heart, 2saying, “In a certain city there was a judge who did not fear God and did not respect man. 3“There was a widow in that city, and she kept coming to him, saying, ‘Give me legal protection from my opponent.’ 4“For a while he was unwilling; but afterward he said to himself, ‘Even though I do not fear God nor respect man, 5yet because this widow bothers me, I will give her legal protection, otherwise by continually coming she will wear me out.’” 6And the Lord said, “Hear what the unrighteous judge said; 7now, will not God bring about justice for His elect who cry to Him day and night, and will He delay long over them? 8“I tell you that He will bring about justice for them quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will He find faith on the earth?” Luke 18:1-8

If you have ever reached that point in a situation where all you can do is pray…you can no longer reason, you can’t figure it out on your own, and you cannot change the situation for yourself…you have reached the place you should have reached at the beginning of the situation. It is much easier said than done. Today and the last week God has been sending the reminder to me and for me to share with others that we need to be bold. We need to pray bold prayers, and we need to really exert our faith. It’s like the "Test Your Might" games, where you muster up all the strength you can to score as high as you can. This is the point of no return, where your faith must buck up and stand strong to reveal God’s purpose.

Boldness can often be confused with arrogance, cockiness, and conceit. But in the true sense of the word, it implies courage. It is time to be courageous in your faith and face the situations that lie ahead. But don’t do it lying down. Recognize that God goes before you and in turning the situation over to Him, He alone can order your steps in the way that will propel you to your destination.

I read this passage in the commentary and what sticks out to me is the callousness of the judge. He did not care–your job does not care, your significant other, your family, your friends, your bill collectors, the doctor, even the judge–they do not care. And because they do not care, it makes the injury even more painful. But the greatness of God reminds us that He is greater than all of these "judges" in our lives. Keep praying, keep asking, keep knocking, and keep seeking. And He who is faithful and just will answer you! Be bold, be strong and of good courage. Know that God will answer and will move on your behalf.

Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9

Help Save A Life – Donation Request

Hi everyone!

One of my sorority sisters is facing the same thing I once faced but even greater. Her name is Shanai and one thing that inspires me about her is her will to live. She is in college, working, and goes to dialysis daily. A kidney has been found for her but she is in need of help financially. Please donate what you can and forward this along. Love you all!


Shanai’s GoFundMe

Welcome the Inconveniences

And some men were carrying on a bed a man who was paralyzed; and they were trying to bring him in and to set him down in front of Him. 19But not finding any way to bring him in because of the crowd, they went up on the roof and let him down through the tiles with his stretcher, into the middle of the crowd, in front of Jesus. 20Seeing their faith, He said, "Friend, your sins are forgiven you." Luke 5:18-20

As I sit here at my desk, I am fighting tears. I have not been this overcome with a desire for a touch of God in a while. In fact, even though I pray many times a day, talk with God regularly, pray and intercede for others, I have felt an emptiness in some areas. Most of it is because I have been trying to live life as I wanted it, rushing things along, trying to figure it all out. It is also because I have not allowed God to refill me. THAT will drive you crazy. Things fall apart, people change their minds, people don’t comply, and things simply go awry. But today and honestly the last few weeks I have had a renewed desire to seek God even more intently than before, especially with some things on the horizon. I welcome it all.

I began reading a new book a few weeks ago. It’s titled "The Grave Robber" by Mark Batterson, author of the Circle Maker and its corresponding prayer challenge, Draw The Circle (which I LOVE!!). It details Jesus’ ministry via the book of John, walking through the miracles detailed therein. And it has honestly ignited a love of Jesus in me that I never knew. How He transcends time, distance, space, states (solids, liquids, and gases–as a math/science lover this is spot on for me), laws of physics, lol, in performing these miracles, it truly reveals who He is as God incarnate. Between reading this book, finishing up the prayer challenge and starting over, listening to the sermon series by my home church pastor (IT is AWESOME!) and then yesterday listening to TD Jakes’ sermon at the recommendation of one of the ladies I pray for…I have just been full. Oh and let me not forget listening to Fill Me Up, sung by the praise team at the Potter’s House, then listening to Tasha Cobbs sing it and then listening to the original by Jesus Culture…okay yes I’m there. But today, I read something that stuck out. Are you willing to be inconvenienced? I can’t lie, I have NOT been willing. I have been tired, burnt out, upset with God, frustrated and confused at why I have been having to pray for this person, listen to that person, stay up late, wake up early, read this, confess that, and most of it was not for me at all!! I literally wished at times He would stop being cryptic with me and just tell me! Haha I was being selfish, because I have my own things going on. But the truth is, like I have done time and time again, I have not been trusting God and I have been dodging Him in acknowledging the answers to prayers He has shown me.

Not too often do we want to be inconvenienced. The homeless person on the corner asking for food or money, the family member or friend that just wants to spend time with us or in need of a listening ear, or the complete stranger that needs prayer…these things…not happening or getting our time. But I was reminded today that it is in the inconveniences that we experience the miracles of God. The Roman official who WALKED 20+ miles to have his son healed, the woman with the issue of blood that fought through the crowd to merely touch the hem of his garment, the Good Samaritan that spent his own money to take care of the man who had been beaten and robbed, and these four friends that carried their paralytic friend to the roof of a house, opened it and lowered him down so that he could be healed by Jesus…these stories, all these instances represent inconveniences that people endured to go after what they wanted. As I was reading, it was like the story was on loud speaker like I was at church and I was thinking, yep, faith without works is dead.

Sometimes, well most if not all of the time, the touch of God we seek will require us to step outside the bounds of comfort. How often do you look beyond the immediacy of what is going on in your life to be inconvenienced? Even in your own needs, you give up after praying a few times, right? You question what God spoke to you. You doubt. You contemplate turning your back on your faith. You.give.up. You run back to Him and repeat the process again. In these days and times, we live for instant gratification. Microwave society as I love to call it. We cannot have a microwave faith. As one of my blog readers/youTube channel subscribers wrote me, if God healed us or delivered us instantly in some cases, we would no longer have a need for Him. I know this to be true. I realize now if God would have completely healed me in college, I would not have sought Him in prayer before my transplant, where many of my family, friends, and church members gathered together to intercede for me and my brother. But if you look around and even in your own lives, its apparent, you thirst for His touch too. You long for His presence and you long for His impartation. So today, be inconvenienced. Extend yourself. Talk to your friends, pray for your family and coworkers. Respond in faith, however God leads you. So many things that I have been seeing are now making sense…welcome the inconveniences today. You never know, the miracle you (or someone else) seek could be waiting for you past the inconvenience.

When Jesus saw their faith, he said, "Friend, your sins are forgiven." Luke 5:20

The Gift of Healing

When Jesus saw him lying there, and knew that he had been now a long time in that condition, he said unto him, Will you be made whole?  John 5:6

Hi there lovelies!  I would have done a video, but seeing that my hair isn’t dry…yeah…haha. Today I had the most amazing epiphanies… I can now listen to a song that once made me cry incessantly thinking about people I lost and no longer feel sad and I can watch chick flick/romantic comedies without feeling sad.  I would skip the song on the album and the crazy part is I loveeeedddd this album.  And the movies…well, whenever they would get to the wedding parts I would cry and feel sorry for myself, because either I would get sad missing my daddy and thinking how he isn’t here to walk me down the aisle or I would think about the fact that I’m very single. LOL.

But I did a prayer challenge where I specifically prayed for total healing.  Healing once and for all.  Because this summer I realized how I let these ideals of marriage and happily ever after consume my every waking thought, to the point that I was thinking about it every day, muttering over who I thought was going to be my husband, complaining that things were not going as I thought they should be going and just being angry with God.  Then one day, God revealed to me some things that I needed to let go of and that were keeping me from fully being healed.  And just like I did with forgiving others, I prayed about it, felt the pain, cried, and did that as often as it took.  So today, I realized that I am content.  Happy in this space, accepting me as I am, faults and all, and ready to live life without regrets.

I realized that healing is much more than physical.  I’m reminded right now of the miracle of the invalid at the pool of Bethesda in John 5, verses 1 through 15.  Jesus asked him did he want to be made whole.  I’m sure after being crippled for 38 years he had some mental insecurities and issues, emotional baggage and shortcomings, and the obvious disdain for life.  Sometimes we get these same issues from the heartaches of life, death, breakups, divorce, job losses, and failed family relationships.  We give up and we get so down on ourselves that we respond like the man did, with excuses.  Fortunately, Jesus sees beyond our excuses and meets us where we are to bring us what we need.  That’s what He did for me in New Orleans, and that’s what He did for me just a few weeks ago.

Healing is not always instantaneous, but we always have to get to a place to accept it.  Accept that we need healing.  Accept that we don’t want our lives to be the same.  Accept that we need Jesus to give us that healing.  I’m so grateful to God that I accepted what He offered me.  So today I encourage you to accept the gift of healing.  No matter how long it takes, no matter how much you have to thank Him for it, accept it and receive it.  Day by day the pain will fade and you will be better than you were before.  You will be wiser and in a position to share your testimony with others who are going through what you are facing.

The man went away, and told the Jews that it was Jesus which had made him whole.  John 5:15

Blog Postings

Hi all,

Sorry for the hiatus and I apologize for the spam!! I’ve changed all my email addresses. Be on the lookout for an update in Mid-December so you can see what’s next with my blog, ministry, and my life!

God bless! Love y’all


"Hatred paralyzes life; love releases it

Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it

Hatred darkens life; love illuminates it."

~Martin Luther King, Jr.


A Few Things…

Hey everybody!

My life has been a whirlwind…literally lesson after lesson. Situation after situation. But alas, I’m still up…(I blame Insanity workout o_O) and I’ve been reading and praying and writing and did a video. Actually I’ve been doing a lot of videos lately…

Anyway, I’m here to share the link to those videos and also to this blog post I just read that blessed my spirit. It literally laid out everything that has happened in my life in regards to relationships in the last 5 years. I’m so grateful that God has me where I am finally able to heal from the remaining remnants once and for all to have a clean slate. Nonetheless, the post may be a blessing to you and so may the videos. Oh, be on the lookout for a new bible study series and more to come! With all that said, sweet dreams!




Testimony Videos:
May 20th Video -
June 30th Video – http://youtu.be/cFWHtATYE8g
July 7th Video – http://youtu.be/-fpeuV4GlMQ
July 14th Video – http://youtu.be/K_IJZ1E0-Jc

“Hatred paralyzes life; love releases it
Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it
Hatred darkens life; love illuminates it.”

~Martin Luther King, Jr.

Full Circle

For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus. Philippians 1:6

Good morning beautiful people! I hope you are having an amazing day so far. I’m home, sitting on my bed, being a bum, lol, before I go take care of some business. I read a devotion in this book "Draw the Circle;" I read "The Circle Maker," a book on prayer and also got the 40-day prayer challenge that goes along with it. The devotion spoke of the importance of journaling. I am an avid journaler, lol, and I have been writing in journals probably since I could write. Afterwards, I grabbed my new journal to write (new journal, new journey), but God pressed on my heart to grab my journal from the last two years and to look through it.

Looking back in this way allowed me to see how God has grown me. And one entry in particular has truly moved my heart. I’ll share some of it with you.

On February 6, 2012, I wrote this:
"I wish I could leave and go into a place where I could recover from this, but I know that is unrealistic."

At the time, I was still recovering from my daddy’s death, dealing with some betrayal, dealing with a broken heart and simply attempting to heal from all my past relationships. I was still in Charleston.

Funny that I looked back today, because God did just that in moving me here. He answered a prayer that seemed unrealistic to me by moving me to New Orleans and allowing me to begin law school. He provided finances to help with the cost of school. He put me in a cocoon, so to speak, because I have not had a serious relationship and have spent time building and nurturing my relationship with Him. He healed my heart, empowered me to forgive, and showed me the things that mattered most. He has made me comfortable in my own skin, no longer bound by the words of others or their opinions. He taught me to trust Him and that I can rest in Him. Granted, I still have more work to do, but God truly answered my prayer. And before I looked in my journal, I didn’t remember even asking God for that.

He has truly brought me full circle–from this year being so busy that I could not get sad on my daddy’s death anniversary but was instead joyful and cried tears of joy! He has moved me from a place of complete dependence on my job as a means of survival to being willing to quit and resting in Him for provision. I have not worked a full 80 hours since last year. He has been just moving and blessing me in such major ways that I can’t explain…It is all God. All Him.

I invite you to reflect on your life. Reflect on how God has grown you, moved you from one place to another (both literally and spiritually), and just give Him a shout of praise for the progression. If you have not yet experienced this in some area of your life, you will come full circle because God wants us to be better men and women! He wants to grow us and develop us. He wants to mature us and make us better for His use. He wants to stretch us and manifest His glory in our lives. If you haven’t kicked the bucket and are reading this, you obviously still have plenty of time!

He will also keep you firm to the end, so that you will be blameless on the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. 1 Corinthians 1:8

You are NOT Crazy

Joseph, a young man of seventeen, was tending the flocks with his brothers, the sons of Bilhah and the sons of Zilpah, his father’s wives, and he brought their father a bad report about them. Now Israel loved Joseph more than any of his other sons, because he had been born to him in his old age; and he made an ornate robe for him. When his brothers saw that their father loved him more than any of them, they hated him and could not speak a kind word to him. Joseph had a dream, and when he told it to his brothers, they hated him all the more. He said to them, “Listen to this dream I had: We were binding sheaves of grain out in the field when suddenly my sheaf rose and stood upright, while your sheaves gathered around mine and bowed down to it.” His brothers said to him, “Do you intend to reign over us? Will you actually rule us?” And they hated him all the more because of his dream and what he had said. Then he had another dream, and he told it to his brothers. “Listen,” he said, “I had another dream, and this time the sun and moon and eleven stars were bowing down to me.” When he told his father as well as his brothers, his father rebuked him and said, “What is this dream you had? Will your mother and I and your brothers actually come and bow down to the ground before you?” His brothers were jealous of him, but his father kept the matter in mind.
Genesis 37:2-11

Someday, like today for me, you will realize you have gotten to a point in your life where the moves that God has you making do not seem to make sense to others. And that’s okay, because your purpose is to trust and rest in God, fulfilling God’s will for your life. Today I was reminded of the stories of Joseph and Abraham as I realized that what God has me doing does not make sense to outsiders (this is the MAIN reason God had me learn to keep my mouth shut). I’m perfectly okay with it because I see how He has confirmed His word to me time and time again.

For some, it does not make sense to go back to the old office where I was thrown under the bus time after time, overlooked for my promotion, discriminated against, harassed and undervalued (hey it doesn’t make very much sense to me either lol hahaha). It does not make sense to stay in a technical job when I am in law school to ultimately change careers some day. It does not make sense to move back to South Carolina after I did everything I could to move to New Orleans. But that’s okay too.

I shared Joseph’s story first because he had to hold on to the dreams that God gave him even when his own family was jealous of him. Sometimes you will get to a point in your walk with God where you have to hold on to what He told/showed you even when others doubt and do not believe it. But Joseph experienced accusation and demotion–being accused of rape by Potiphar’s wife and thrown into prison after being sold into slavery by his own brothers. It was all part of God’s plan because at the right time, God elevated him to second in command only to Pharaoh! (see Genesis 41) The road may temporarily get lonely, but you are not crazy, keep your eyes on God and keep trusting Him.

Even more similar to my situation is Abraham’s own journey. In fact, before moving here, I taught bible study on Abraham’s great faith, and God has reminded me of it many times throughout my stay here. Genesis 12:1 states God’s decree to Abram (before God changed his name): The Lord had said to Abram, “Go from your country, your people and your father’s household to the land I will show you." Later in verse 4 Abram leaves for Canaan with the promise that God would make him a great nation among many other amazing blessings. He arrives, and takes the lesser land after he and his nephew Lot decide on splitting the land. Then in verse 10 Abram leaves– "Now there was a famine in the land, and Abram went down to Egypt to live there for a while because the famine was severe." To most it would seem crazy to uproot yourself and all your family and possessions from your family. But to leave the "promised land" is even crazier. Yet still, there was purpose in Abraham’s temporary departure. Abraham left Egypt more wealthy than he went!

In both of these radical faith situations, Joseph and Abraham had to be willing to trust God despite what others thought. It was their faith that paid off for them. God increased them at the appointed time and used the detours as part of the overall plan to elevate them to their destiny.

So I encourage myself today and I hope this blesses you…don’t give up when circumstances try to make you question the things God has revealed to you. Don’t give up when you are told you are confused or crazy. As long as it is God’s voice you are listening to, you will get to your promised land–whether it is actually a place, a person, or simply a place in Him.

The Lord said to Abram after Lot had parted from him, “Look around from where you are, to the north and south, to the east and west. All the land that you see I will give to you and your offspring forever. I will make your offspring like the dust of the earth, so that if anyone could count the dust, then your offspring could be counted. Go, walk through the length and breadth of the land, for I am giving it to you.”
Genesis 13:14-17

Make Music Count on CBS Atlanta

I’m sharing this with y’all because he has an amazing testimony. This is my friend Marcus. He QUIT his job to follow his dream of connecting math with music. I honestly remember when he was thinking of going to grad school for a program that would connect his passions for math and music. Then last year he reached out to me and others to support him in this…I obeyed God and supported him because I saw God’s blessing on the vision he had. I had to see this as encouragement to myself because of my impending move and quitting my job…the uncertainty that awaits. It strengthened my faith because just like God used me and others to sow into him, He will do the same for me and for you. God will make a way and provide for you when you trust Him. So I wanted to pass it on. Don’t limit God, follow the dream He gave you–of course you must know Him and seek Him for the dream He has for you–because He will bless the dreams He has given you. It requires some radical faith–which apparently is only the size of a mustard seed, lol. You have to be willing to walk on water like Peter–keep your eyes on Jesus! Marcus quit his job at the end of May last year and went into this full time with only two schools, working the program alone. Now, his program has spread to 15 schools and he has a staff. Bottom line: don’t give up on your dreams, because as long as God ordained it and you keep Him first, its sure to manifest and be larger than you can imagine!!

Love y’all!